Friday, July 31, 2009
Guilty or Innocent
RULE 1 You can only say Guilty or Innocent.
RULE 2 You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!(So people reading this, if you want an explanation.. comment.)
1. Asked someone to marry you? Innocent
2. Kissed one of your Facebook friends? Guilty
3. Danced on a table in a bar? Innocent
4. Ever told a lie? Guilty
5. Had feelings for someone whom you can't have? Innocent
6. Ever kissed someone of the same sex? Innocent
7. Kissed a picture? Guilty
8. Slept in until 5 PM? Innocent
9. Fallen asleep at work/school? Guilty
10. Held a snake? Guilty
11. Been suspended from school? Innocent
12. Worked at a fast food restaurant? Guilty
13. Stolen from a store? Innocent
14. Been fired from a job? Innocent
15. Done something you regret? Guilty
16. Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? Guilty
17. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Guilty
18. Kissed in the rain? Guilty
19. Sat on a roof top? Guilty
20. Kissed someone you shouldn't? Guilty
21. Sang in the shower? Guilty
22. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Innocent
23. Shaved your head? Innocent
24. Slept naked? Innocent
25. Had a boxing membership? Innocent
26. Made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? Guilty
27. Been in a band? Innocent
28. Shot a gun? Guilty
29. Donated Blood? Innocent
30. Eaten alligator meat? Guilty
31. Eaten cheesecake? GUILTY!
32. Have/had a tattoo? Guilty
33. Liked someone, but will never tell who? Guilty
34. Been too honest? Guilty
35. Ruined a surprise? Guilty
36. Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you can't walk afterward? Guilty
37. Erased someone in your friends list? Guilty
38. Dressed in a woman's clothes (if your a guy) or man's clothes (if your a girl)? Guilty
39. Joined a pageant? Innocent
40. Been told that you're handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said? Guilty
41. Had communication w/ your ex? Guilty
42. Got totally drunk one night and you have an important thing to do in the tomorrow morning? Innocent
43. A total stranger treat you by paying your bus fare? Innocent
44. Get totally angry that you cried so hard? Guilty
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Sooooo hot!
Last night I ended up taking my sarong, soaking it, wringing it out and laying it on top of me to help me sleep ... and it worked!!! Well, until 4 am when it was dry and I was sweating again. Ugh! I really do like summer better than winter, but when it's this hot I just feel lazy. I'm sweating just sitting here typing this, so anything above that is just over exerting myself. ;)
Monday, July 27, 2009
Sweet release
I'm not feeling real joy at the moment. In fact, the longer whatever this oppression is hangs around, the more discouraged I get. There's not a lot of peace here either. Not like a river. Not even a rivulet. Whatever this cloud is I'm under, it isn't bringing with it the fruit of the Spirit. I can't get back to the clear air I normally have. Something is in the way.
God had me read that part (page 51) of Walking with God (by John Eldredge - I talked about it a few posts ago) on Sunday for a reason. It's exactly where I was at. There's been something bothering me for awhile now and I just couldn't figure out what to do with it. I've let myself get stressed over it and the effects have been showing. I haven't been able to be myself and experience true joy. Unfortunately, I can't go into detail about the actual situation, but God revealed more to me.
You'll soon discover that if you want life and joy, if you are moving into deeper intimacy with God, you are going to attract attention. The enemy will not like it. That's okay. Don't surrender. Don't back down. As Scripture says, resist. Rise up. Fight back. If you do, you can be rid of the attack. And best of all, it makes you holy. Because it strengthens your will and draws you closer to Christ. It causes you to mature, for you have to be intentional and deal with assaults directly. - pg 56So that's what I've done. I've acknowledged that I've been listening to that voice in my head that's beating me down and calling me a bad person and I'm no longer going to listen to that voice. God wants me to find His peace and have joy. He came "that we might have life and have it abundantly." John 10:10 I feel that I have been getting closer to God lately and it didn't even cross my mind that Satan wouldn't like it and would attack me. I hate how cunning and subtle he is and how he can make us feel bad about ourselves. Yes, we do need to take inventory of ourselves and desire to become better people in Christ, but if it's from God, He won't beat you down to get you there. He'll do it in love and bring peace from it.
Thank you, God, for revealing that to me and helping me to bind Satan and the accusations he was gently placing in my head. Those thoughts do not come from You and do not produce fruits of the Spirit.
Friday, July 17, 2009
ONE ARTIST
Pick Your Artist: U2 (of course ... did you expect anyone else?)
Are you male or female: Party Girl
Describe yourself: Lady with the Spinning Head
How do you feel about yourself: Love and Peace or Else
Describe where you currently live: Don't Take Your Guns to Town (haha - if you know where I live, you'd know how true this is - in a pleading way)
If you could go anywhere you wanted to go: New York
Your favorite form of transportation: Fast Cars
Your best friend is: The Sweetest Thing
Your favorite color is: Paint it Black
Favorite time of day: Night and Day
If your life were a TV show, what would it be called: Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For
What is life to you: Magnificent
What is the best advice you have to give: Sometime's You Can't Make it on Your Own
If you could change your name, what would it be: Elevation (ok, I could've gone with Grace or Gloria, but I wanted to be different)
Thought for the Day: The Saints Are Coming
How I would like to die: Miracle Drug
My soul's present condition: Rejoice
My motto: All Because of You!
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Transformation

I don't know if you can read the small print at the bottom of the book, but it says, "Talk to Him. Hear from Him. Really." That's what I needed that weekend ... well, I always need it, but especially that weekend. You may say, "but you're single and live alone, so why would you need to go away for the weekend?" Because there are too many distractions at home and I know myself ... I would've allowed myself to be distracted. I hate that I have to go away to feel like I can really talk and listen to God, but that's what I needed that weekend. So, away I went.
There was another book I read the first night (which I'll tell you about in another post) and then finished in the morning, then I went for a walk and took a few pictures, which I'll throw in throughout this post.
Sometimes we feel so alone in how we're feeling. God knows and is there for us.
I picked up this book not knowing what I would find, but being open to whatever it was. I was only in the Introduction when I found myself already underlining things. He talks about Adam and Eve and the relationship they originally had with God.
"...whatever it was they were, and whatever it was they had, we also were meant to be and to have. And what they enjoyed above all the other delights of that place was this - they walked with God. They talked with Him, and He with them. For this you and I were made. And this we must recover. It is our deepest need, as human beings, to learn to live intimately with God."
This is something I want. Intimacy with God. I continued reading and reading about intimacy with God revealed to me how intimately God knows me. That didn't scare me ... it excited me! The fact that God loves me THIS MUCH (even though I'll never completely fathom how much) is overwhelmingly awesome. Even when I sin, God comes looking for me.
The Lord is with you when you are with Him. If you seek Him, He will be found by you. 2 Chron. 15:2
I'm going to write what I wrote in my journal at this point.
That's all we have to do. Seek Him. God is ALWAYS with me. That isn't a new thought to me, yet somehow I forget that "with me" doesn't mean up in the clouds whenever I need to talk. He was in the car with me on the drive up here and is sitting across the table from me now.
I sat and thought about that fact for a second. God is sitting across the table from me right now. I thought, "Ok, let's talk," and this is literally the conversation I had with God about my anger.
Me: What do I do with this anger?
God: Give it to me.
Me: But for some reason, I feel I'm entitled to this anger. You love (this person) so You'll be nice to them and they don't deserve Your love.
God: You don't deserve my love.
Me: I know, but it's so hard to grasp Your concept of "all sins are equal."
God: Let me be the judge and jury.
Me: Ok, right. That does make me feel a bit better knowing that You'll judge them.
God: That shouldn't bring you joy. You'll be judged one day, too.
Me: I just don't get how they can do this! How can they be so selfish?
God: Haven't you been discovering how selfish you are just this past week? (refer to previous posts about God revealing my selfishness to me)
Me: Wow. You're right. That's a good slap across the face. Help me to pray that all of our eyes are opened to our selfish ways and that we see how ugly that is and how that DOES NOT bring honour to Your name.
I can't say that I'm not still upset with what's going on, but I honestly don't feel the anger anymore. Luckily ... actually, no, I don't believe in luck ... by Divine appointment, I had a counselling appointment scheduled for the Monday after my weekend away. My counsellor helped me to see what this person may be going through and really opened my eyes and I actually left the counselling session with compassion for this person ... who just days before (although I'm not proud to admit it) I couldn't have cared less if I ever saw again.

That night we also had our wind up Care Group for the year. We had been given a bit of homework and when I opened it up while away for the weekend (yes, leaving my homework until the last minute), I had to laugh when I saw the question in bold at the bottom of the page. It said, What is a transformation story you have that you can share? Hmmm, let me think ... !!! Going through a bit of transformation RIGHT NOW I'd have to say. I went back to reading my book and while I'd like to type out all of pages 18 and 19 for you right now, I'll just give you a taste so you go read it for yourself. :)
We may not know exactly what God is up to in this or that event in our lives. "Why didn't I get the job?" "How come she won't return my calls?" "Why haven't my prayers healed this cancer?" I don't know. Sometimes we can get clarity, and sometimes we can't. But whatever else is going on, we can know this: God is always up to our transformation."
Transformation isn't always fun and it can be a lot of work, but if it brings me closer to God in the end, He promises it will be worth it.
Monday, June 08, 2009
Opinions, please.
So, we know that's not a first for me. Being selfish is one sin I'm unfortunately, too familiar with ... but working on to rectify. What was a first was at the end of the sermon it was time to take communion. He went through the "instructions" about how if you're not a Christian you may just want to let the bread and cup pass you by and how if you have an issue with a "brother" you may also want to do the same until you make it right. All of a sudden I was confused. I'm dealing with anger right now towards someone who hasn't done anything directly to me, but to someone I'm close to. Is that enough to make me let the communion pass me by? It's not like I can go and make it right with this person because, like I said, they haven't done anything directly to me and therefore, if I went to them, they may tell me to butt out. But the anger I have in my heart isn't right and I know that. Do I hold off on communion until I've dealt with this anger? I didn't know what to do. I've never had this feeling before. Since I was unsure, I left during communion and decided to not take it. This was a first for me. Something I really do not want to repeat. I hated not taking communion and feeling that special bond with God. It left a hole in my heart, but not enough to drive out the anger yet.
Anyone have any good advice for me? I'm all ears.
Monday, June 01, 2009
Inspirations
http://deathisnotdying.com/fullvideo/
She has encouraged me to not be so selfish and to remember my purpose. I have been put on this earth to please God. I'm going to seek ways to do that this week.
The other thing that inspired me this weekend was a movie called Running the Sahara. Here's the preview for the movie.
This movie is about 3 guys who run across the Sahara desert. For me, this was not an inspiration about running (although I do want to go for a run tonight). It was more an inspiration that if you truly set your mind to something, you can do it. It has also inspired me to go to Africa. I've always wanted to go, but I'm really going to try to make that happen. In what capacity will I go? I don't know yet. I just hope to get there.

Sunday, May 24, 2009
Fiona needs ...
Here’s how it works: Google “[your first name] needs” (don't forget to include the quotes) and share the first 10 results. That's it: it is that simple. But be honest...
Fiona needs URL
Fiona needs to ______. I want to ______ Fiona. Fiona can ______ my ______. If I could describe Fiona in a word: ______. Fiona will never _____.
Princess Fiona needs her Shrek
Fiona needs support
Fiona Needs is on Facebook
fiona needs to go on a diet seriously
Fiona needs money!!!
Fiona needs new hips.
Fiona needs insperation
Fiona needs a HOME!!!
Ha Ha! Some of those are SO true ... and some of them I have no idea what they mean, but it was funny, so I thougth I'd post it. :)
Saturday, May 16, 2009
I'm back! (I should look and see how many times I've used that as my Title)
Anyways, there it is. Now that I've admitted that, maybe I'll be here more often.
Oh, in the time that I've been gone, I've transferred to a new job and it's been wonderful! God's timing is perfect, as always, and He knew what I needed well before I did. I'm so glad that I didn't get that job that I talked about earlier. I'm also glad that He's in control and not me. :)
Monday, February 23, 2009
See you in April!
In the meantime I will be heading to Ottawa for a few days for work, hanging out with my parents for their last few days in town, figuring out what to do about my job situation (oh, I forgot to mention that I didn't get the job that I had you all praying for. I know God has something else in store for me, but I do admit that I was disappointed - thanks again for all your prayers) and counting down the days until I go to Vegas at the end of March.
Have a great 40 days and I'll see you in April!
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Great quote
10 things I like ...

Nations - it's my way of saying I like to travel without having the letter 'T' given to me. :)
Now - there's no time like the present!
Notoriety - I'll admit it. I don't go seeking attention, but if it comes my way, I don't run from it, either. My face will usually go a million shades of red, but I'm usually not actually embarrassed. It's just how I handle the attention ... that's the part I don't love because I'll hear, "I've never seen someone's face go THAT red" or "You must be SOOOO embarrassed!"
Novels - I LOOOOOOOVE to read. When I was a little girl, my friend, Susie, and I would each have 10 books and we would read (out loud) a chapter from one book, put it to the bottom of the pile and start with the next one. We had 20 books on the go at the same time and somehow we kept all the story lines straight.
Nativity - because it's God's love for us sent down in human form
Nutrition - ha ha! Had ya goin' there!!! :P
NBC - because this network has brought us great TV shows such as The Office and ER.
New York City - one of my favorite cities that I've ever travelled to. I could sit and people watch all day ... or go to a Broadway show ... or go to the top of the Empire State Building and sight see ... or walk over the Brooklyn Bridge ... the list goes on. I would highly recommend a trip to New York.
Number Nine - it's three 3's :)
Nerds - the candy, not so much the people ... and not because I don't like them ... I doubt they would like me because they are WAAAAAY too smart for me.
So there you have it. Wow. That was harder than I thought it would be. Maybe it was just the letter N that was particularly hard. I'm sure for the rest of the day things will just randomly come to me and I'll think, "Oh shoot! Should've said Northern Ireland because my friend Lisa is from there, or Narnia because those were great movies." Oh well. This was a fun one. Thanks, Sonya.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
February ... most of it
The highlight of the night, for me, had to be reuniting with my 2 high school basketball coaches. I made a hard decision in Grade 10 and left MEI and went to Mouat. If I had stayed at MEI, I would've played with great players, but little did I know that going to Mouat I would be coached by 2 of the best coaches in BC ... ok, maybe Canada! Allison McNeil was my coach in Grade 10. We had no Jr. team so I had to play on the Sr. Girls team that year. We weren't so good, but we had fun. She's now the Head Coach for the National Women's Team. For Grade 11 and 12, my coach was Pat Lee. In Grade 11 we had 2 players, so Mr. Lee sent us out in the halls scouring for girls to join our team. We did eventually get enough players, but they were fresh. Most didn't know much about basketball or the rules, so it was an interesting year, but we made it through. I think we won 1 game. Grade 12 was a little better. Mr. Lee has coached all over the Fraser Valley and has a great reputation. He's an excellent coach. Anyone who's had him as a coach is extremely lucky.
Last weekend I went to see Linda and Drew's new arrival, Joseph. He was their beautiful Christmas gift, born on Christmas Day at 4:00 am ... and she was home by 4:00 pm! Crazy, hey? At first, my excuse for not having seen him was all the snow. I couldn't tell her that the real excuse was because I hadn't finished his quilt yet. I finally got it done and off I went to meet this fine fellow.
Isn't he adorable? I was so proud that he smiled so much for me and now Linda tells me that he smiles at their teddy bears all the time. Hmmm. Thanks, buddy. :)
Look what I did! Yes, that's me holding him, swaying away until ...
Awwww, so cute! :)Next up was a mini Borne reunion. My parents have come to town for almost a month so my cousins decided to have whoever could make it out to their place for supper. I was so hungry that I completely forgot to pull out my camera until the food was all gone and my Grandma and parents had left. Oh wait, there's my Dad in one pic, so maybe I just didn't get good shots of everyone. Sorry about that. It was lots of fun and how better to end a night then by playing Dutch Blitz! Thanks, Rosie (and Gord, of course) for having us over. I can't wait until Bornefest this summer.

Friday, February 20, 2009
Almost caught up!
Games night with great friends ...
Reconnecting with old friends (via games night again ... my first time playing Settlers ... and seeing their toddler again) ...
A birthday party where I got to see the old gang ...
And it ended with a bang ... Blogger Get Together!!!Thursday, February 19, 2009
Christmas in February!
The other 2 pictures above were taken on Christmas Eve morning. I went out and shoveled very early in the morning before work and an hour later you couldn't even tell I'd shoveled. Needless to say, I was a little nervous about my flight that was supposed to fly out that afternoon. We got sent home from work at 9:30 because there were only a few people in the office so I went and sat at the airport hoping to maybe catch an earlier flight. Pretty much all flights were cancelled.Lucky for me one of my best friends lives just down the street from the airport and they welcomed me into their home to spend Christmas Eve with them (collage below) and she even got up at 5:00 am to drive me back to the airport in the morning. Thanks Rachel!
My flight was supposed to leave at 6:30 am, however, we didn't board the plane until 9:45ish and after de-icing, we hit the runway and got up in the air at about 11:00.
FINALLY descending into Calgary!!!
I was so happy to get to spend time with my wonderful family. Parents, one sister, one bro-in-law, a niece and a nephew and even a crazy cousin that they let out of the loony bin for the day (just kidding, kind of). We played Chicken's Feet, napped, ate wonderful meals prepared by my wonderful mother and just generally had a great time.
The 3rd last picture is of the quilt I made my sister for Christmas. I was also making 2 baby quilts for friends. These are the reasons I didn't blog much in October and November. I couldn't tell you about them as they were supposed to be a surprise.Saturday, February 14, 2009
The days of Jennie (oh, and Jon, too, of course) :)
In October my dear friend, Jennie, got engaged. I felt SO privileged to be asked to be her Maid of Honour. We didn't have a ton of time, so in November, as per my duties, I got to throw her a shower.
Then in December, just a few days before the wedding, I also got to accompany her to the spa for some pampering. Aaaaaahhh!Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Catching up via pictures - Round 2
They have 3 miniature donkeys, 2 horses, 2 rabbits, a bizillion cats and only 1 dog at this time.

I then had the distinct honour of accompanying Jennie on her quest to find THE PERFECT wedding dress. I believe she did a wonderful job.
These were the only real Fall pictures I took this year. I know, strange for me to not have a million pics. This old car stands on my friends yard and it looked so great with all the colours around it.
Then it was time for me to say one last good riddance ... errr ... I mean, goodbye, to my truck (I had it for 7 years which is the longest I've had any of my vehicles) and hello to THE MINI!!!Ta DAAAAAA!!!














