Today I'm studying ... yes, I'm taking a break right now. There's a job at work I think I want (no, I'm not 100% sure but only time will tell) so I applied and the government has a cruel and unusual way of picking someone for the job. They put us through testing H-E-double hockey sticks. I know I have the knowledge for the basics of the job and with training and time, I'd be great at it (yes, I'm very humble - hee hee). But nooooo, they have to test us on policies, procedures and manuals and things that no person in their right mind would know walking into the job. If it was an open book test, I'd have a fighting chance, but that would be reasonable.
Anyways, the real reason I'm writing about this is because today's sermon at church was on prayer. Our pastor talked about 3 reasons why people don't pray and he got me on 2 of them, but I'll just talk about one of them right now (gotta get back to studying, ya know). The one that pertains to this post is that we've been disappointed before so we're ultimately scared to pray for something and be let down again. I've been complaining about my job for quite some time now and I'm a firm believer that you can't complain about anything if you're not willing to do something to change it. Over the course of this past year, I've probably applied on 15 different job postings I've seen. All doors have been slammed in my face. I've prayed about them and left them with God and for some reason, He has seen fit to leave me where I am. No, that's not entirely true. When I came back from my trip this summer I stayed in the same department I was in before, but changed desks and job description somewhat. This change was good and welcomed. Over the past few months I have realized that God has me where I am for a reason and when He thinks it's time to move on, something else will open up. So, I'm back to praying for His will to be done and for me to get this new job if it fits into His plan. If His answer is no, I will try not to be disappointed and remember that He only wants what's best for me. Essentially, God owes me nothing. He has paid the ultimate price for me already. Who am I to ask for more? I want to be a happier person this year. That's one of my "resolutions," but that's for another post.
I would love for you to take a few seconds out of your time tomorrow morning (or tonight if 8 am is too early) and to pray for me and the test I'll be writing. Pray that it won't be full of silly, impossible policy questions but real questions about the issues of the day to day job and that I will remember the information I've been studying ... oh, and also that I'll be content with whatever the outcome is.
Thanks for listening. I'll let you know how it goes.